Free-Write

Rocking a month till we graduate
 and I still have things to say

I noticed recently, that my flirtatious patterns are quite ironic. I can flirt with a girl whom I don't like without any problem. However, once I actually start to like a girl, it's hard for me to actually flirt with them. It must be in human nature to feel this way.

I'll try to explain it, if not to you, then to myself. When I like a girl, I feel like I have a lot to lose if they don't like me back. Because of this fear of loss, I think of my actions before I perform them, often losing chances I normally would have taken.

When I flirt with a girl whom I don't like, I have nothing to lose. Because I have nothing to lose if things go sour, I can flirt with them as much as I like. This could be another reason why a lot of girls and guys are "led on". I know I've led on a few girls in my life. I've also been led on in my life.

Even with this in mind, when I think about it, all the girls whom i've grown to like before becoming real close with them haven't ended well. Freshman year, Sophmore year, Junior year, and partially senior year.

It's really fascinating how the brain works. Maybe I should become a neurologist, or a biomedical engineer.