Senior year has been interesting. In some aspects, it's been a lot of the same thing. In some aspects there's nothing, and in some aspects a lot is going really well for me.
Academically I'm still pulling around a 94 average. I increased my SAT overall to a 1960, which i couldn't be happier about. I have the same teachers as last year, which definitely feels repetitive. For the most part I feel like I'm going through the same motions and practices; i need something to change.
This mindset has poured over to my social life. I'm getting a little tired of my central clique, and I've expanded the amount of people I talk to. The only real problem right now is that a) I don't have a car to hang out with other people, b) I would need to ask my parents to go places, and c) I've pretty much expanded myself across the student body of Kearney. I can't talk to much more new people because there aren't any more new people to talk to.
In terms of love life, I appear to be falling in the same trap. This time around, I'm noticing that it's not as much of a desire for this specific girl as it is a desire to have a girl be mine. I've basically milked by central clique of girls, which is another reason why I want to expand. It's not love, it's the desire for compassion.
But I digress. Overall, Senior year has been fantastic. I've met a lot of new people, I feel much more comfortable showing myself around others, and i'm definitely an overall better man than I used to be. However, with the goals I have for myself, I'm still a shell of the man I want to be.
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